So, I went to use the scanner I got for my birthday last year.
And, it's broken. Like, 100% Dead. I am so pissed off right now that I really honestly feel like throwing in the towel as an artist.
Keep in mind, I'm not the rant about quitting type, but I've just run into so many problems with getting my art really going over the past 10 years that it feels like I'm going to be stuck doing it as a hobby forever and never as an actual career! Computers dying, files getting corrupted, the loss of equipment being stolen, no money for the programs I need to complete projects started ages ago, etc etc. It just goes on and on. Meanwhile I have piles and piles of drawings stacking up and no way to scan them.
Now, I know most people would be like (but you're drawing) Yeah, but I can't draw background art because I suck at it. My comic characters live in an empty white world. Plus, what good is drawing the comics if I can't make copies or color the work digitally? Yeah, I can color by hand with pens, paint, crayon, whatever cheap supplies I can get my hands on. But, I was spoiled with digital software. I can change the colors on a whim if I feel like it. If it was hand colored I would have to redraw or print out an uncolored copy to color again. (again, to do the second, I would need a scanned copy to print!)
I can't even bribe with REAL MONEY other artists to help me draw the backgrounds or color the work for me so I can actually make some sort of progress. It's like, "Here, real money! Just color these 5 pages...." and they're like "No, I wanna STAY a STARVING and PENNILESS artist." Really? Freaking really?
I am so super discouraged right now.
I'm getting to the point where I feel like I really should just give in and do the mommy at home thing and just let Emerald Angel Comics die in peace already. It's suffering and in pain and I just need to humanely cut the life support. It's cruel to keep hanging on to something that's been dead for a long time already.